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A Sunday Morning look from God’s Pew

This is where we went to church yesterday . . . at least for those of you who answered the roll call on my facebook page:

Twenty-five states represented (I think), at least twelve denominations and several non-denominational churches. You can click on this link for a better visual. Sorry, NC folks, we’re a bit covered up on the map. Thanks to everyone who pinpointed their Sunday worship to this completely random and highly unscientific poll. There’s no hidden agenda here, no huge motive attached to my survey, and certainly no guilt allowed for anyone who didn’t make it to church yesterday! I just wanted to give you a tiny (emphasis on tiny) of how our “church going” might look to God from his heavenly vantage point. Can you even imagine how we must look to him, how wonderfully warmed God is when he sees our worship meld together as corporate praise on any given Sunday morning?!

 

Along these lines, I’d like to share with you a reflection I wrote in my book, Peace for the Journey. It details the reasons behind my choice to be a church-goer. Blessings to you, each one, as you move forward in your faith this week. Shalom.

 

A Sacred Doing (excerpt from Peace for the Journey, F. Elaine Olsen, 2010, 134-136)

 

Church is a family business around here. Doing life with Jesus isn’t an option in our home. Hearts may refuse the deeper “doing”—the sacred work of the cross. But as it pertains to our physical “doing,” to our comings and our goings and our stops between the two? Well, there is compliance on the part of my children, at least for the seasonal eighteen years beneath our roof.

 

It sounds harsh, legalistic, and intrusive, but as parents charged with the sacred trust of “training up a child” in the way of holiness, we understand that church serves as an ample shaping ground. At least it should. If church isn’t your thing, if for some reason you’ve come to the conclusion that your church is doing more harm than good, then it is time to revisit the issue. Maybe even time to find a new church.

 

Why? Because church was never instituted for our harm. Church was given to us as a gift, as a celebration, as a way of gathering hearts in one accord for the unified worship of the one God who is worthy of our reverent pause.

 

It’s not about programs and seeing how much we can cram into a worship service in hopes of raising our emotional fervor. It’s not about worship preferences, a rocking band, a stoic tradition, or even the dressing of our flesh. It’s not about who knows more, who seems less, who offers little, who tithes best. It has nothing to do with pageantry and pomp and circumstances created to boast a better faith than that of the competing churches down the road.

 

We may think it does, and in many ways, the best of these things often enhance our time of church participation, thus leading us closer to the heart of God. But to limit our church experience within such parameters—to define the quality of our faith based on these self-imposed guidelines—is to limit the sacred worth behind God’s intention for our gatherings. That worth is based on something far greater—a grander intention that cannot be matched by our feeble attempts at the same.

 

Church should be a place where we gather to know God. Any other intention falls subject to this overriding one. We may institute all manner of routes to get there, but at the end of the day, only one path leads us to the heart of the Father . . .

 

The cross of Jesus Christ.

 

Churches that are willing to follow along this path are not obsessed with the peripheral “rest of it.” Instead, the people are simply content to gather together in order to more fully examine and more profoundly entreat the Lover of their souls. Where two or three come together in God’s name, he promises his presence (Matthew 18:20).

 

And this is one of the primary reasons why church is family business in my home. I am counting on the probability that when our Sunday gatherings commence, there will be at least two or three others who have gathered with a similar intention. I want my children to be in the path of other believers, giving them the opportunity for the sacred intersection of their hearts with the heart of the living God, who knit them together in his likeness.

 

Does it always work out that way? Not always, but does that mean we should stop our efforts along those lines? Should we forego our corporate worship because it sometimes feels contrived and fake and so seemingly full of pretense? When God seems to prefer the hidden corners of our gatherings rather than a full-blown revelation of himself, do we pout out the doors in hasty retreat never to return? Further still, do we allow our children their choices about their participation? Are we content to coddle their preferences about God’s mandate for their sacred shaping? Where does our obedience lie?

 

Church will never perfectly practice our faith. Wherever flesh gathers, problems seem to follow. It is the tension of an earthly pilgrimage—this warring between selfish living and selfless surrender. Still and yet, it is our road to walk. It is our path of privileged participation. We can refuse it, or we can bend to it. Either way, the road requires our feet and the feet of those we hold dearest.

 

Better to give church the benefit of our many doubts and believe that somewhere in our “doing” of it, we will come across Jesus. And whenever that happens, friends, the kingdom of God is opened up for the partaking therein.

 

I don’t want to miss the kingdom feast. I yearn for the joy of its sacred celebration; it is a desire I hold for my family, a yearning I pray for you. Thus, I bow my head and offer this humble plea:

 

Show us, Father, the glory behind our obedience to “do” church. Meet us as we gather, and humble us with your presence. Forgive us when we think that you could do it better. We are a selfish and foolish people to put our needs ahead of your purpose. We want to know you, God; and then out that knowing, we want to serve your people with the truth. Keep us to church; root us in faith, and then carry us along the path until our willing obedience finds us safely in your arms, fully home, and finally at rest. Amen.

 

To learn more about Peace for the Journey and how you might obtain a copy, click here.

for love of You…

Today, while running a quick errand with my kids (is there really such a thing… a quick errand?), we were listening to Audrey Assad’s For Love of You. I haven’t listened to the CD in months; actually, I haven’t listened to much music over the course of my last year. Something broke in me along the way; music took a back seat and silence slipped in as a replacement. But just today, while listening to Audrey, I was reminded of something that I wrote a season ago before my suffering began:

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{from “peace for the journey: in the pleasure of his company”, pgs. 6-7}

“Atlantica–the magical waters of mermaids and talking sea creatures–had lost its capacity to sing. Not because it didn’t hold a melody within its waters, but rather because a tragic death had beaten its drum upon her shores. Loudly and profoundly it marched, sending song’s breath to a watery grave, to be buried deeply within the unseen sands of an untouched grief.

Pain does that. It buries. It may burst forth in all manner of wild expressions at the time of sorrow, but it almost always finds a way to, at least temporarily, suspend the song. When death of any kind marches its cadence upon the soil of our souls, it buries. It digs deeply and cries hard and grasps for fragments of control that don’t allow the music its voice. 

But here is the truth of the eternal song. Once the music has made its way into a heart no amount of throwing and crying and denying its pulse can keep it buried forever. We can go to the grave refusing it a voice, but in the end, the music remains. It will find is chorus, even without our participation, because the King’s music is meant to be sung.”  

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All of this to say, friends, the music is returning to my soul, one note at a time. Today I heard its chorus sung through Audrey’s beautiful voice. A simple grace given to me by the King whose melody remains, despite our suffering seasons. Even so, Lord Jesus, come and sing your song through me.

~elaine
PS: Be sure to join me on Monday for a review and give-away of Joanne Kraft’s first book release, “Just Too Busy!Shalom.

mountain living…

mountain living…

It’s becoming increasingly difficult for me to visit this place. Why? Because with each visit I make, it’s becoming more difficult for me to leave. From the moment I arrive within its boundaries, a gnawing ache begins its witness within my heart for my impending departure. Whether a weekend visit or a lengthier vacation, regardless of the allotted days, my stay never seems to be enough.
I love the mountains; not just any mountains… the Smoky Mountains; in particular, I have a strong affection for the Gatlinburg area. My parents first took me there as a child. Since that time, I imagine I’ve visited there at least a dozen times more. Truth be told, I’d move there tomorrow if money and health weren’t an issue.
It’s a good fit for me, mountain living. I like the people who come there, the eclectic gathering of vacationing souls who make pilgrimage to these hills throughout the year. Even more so, I like the people native to Gatlinburg—those who call it home and generously share its beauty with the rest of the world. In the past week I’ve met people from England, Canada, Alabama, Michigan, Ohio, New York—travelers, transplants, and locals. Like me, they’ve come to love the area and are more than willing to fork out a few dollars to purchase a little piece of some mountain peace.
Mountains may not be your thing; your heart might be more inclined to beach-living, desert living, prairie living, farm living. To each his own; we all need a peaceful place to relinquish our weariness. But as for me and my stress, I choose the mountains; not the curvy roads, icy winters, or growing bear population that coincides with mountain living, but the other part of it. The best part of it. The part that affords me the one thing that living in eastern North Carolina can never provide me—
a visual backdrop that moves my eyes and my heart upward.
The mountains supply a pinnacle or two for sacred focus. An ascending witness that punctuates a higher perspective—one that views life from the top rather than from below. There’s little room for flat living and horizontal visioning in the mountains. Instead, the mountains provide a gracious invitation for its inhabitants to look up… breathe up… think up… live up! Indeed, a perspective in keeping with eternal understanding.
Faith is a forward, upward ascent; perhaps the reason so many of us remain stuck in the valleys, the muck and mire of daily routine. When our eyes (our hearts and wills as well) stay focused at a horizontal level, we miss the breadth, width, and depth of the mountain’s witness. When life gets stuck on the parallel pavement of temporal understanding, our hearts do as well. Pebbles can easily become our irritation, not to mention the potholes that are more than willing to dismantle our forward progression. Whether or not we have a literal mountain to serve as the backdrop for our everyday living, keeping an upward focus is difficult if our hearts are easily troubled by earth’s impediments.
My heart can be… easily troubled by earth’s impediments. I suppose that’s one of the main reasons I love visiting the Smoky Mountains. When I am there, I see better; breathe better; think better; live better. It’s a welcome retreat for me, none more so than now. This has been a long season of stumbling along, friends. I am grateful for the reprieve.
I may never be able to call the Smokies “home,” at least not in the temporal; however, there is coming a day when God’s mountain will be my forever portion; I’ll pitch my tent alongside his and see life from his perspective. There will be no more gnawing aches regarding departures. No more worrying about money and health; no more pebbles or potholes to nail me down to earth’s perimeter. No more having to travel seven hours to get there.
No, when I get home to God’s mountain, I’ll join the thousands upon thousands of angels in joyful assembly and claim a visual backdrop that will keep me living upward for all eternity. The loveliness in my rearview mirror will not reflect a joy once shortly lived. Rather, it will serve as a witness to the beauty that surrounds me, envelops me, enlivens me, and keeps me in constant awareness of the eternal bounty I’ve been given because of the temporal ascent I have chosen.
Today I make that choice again. To look up; to breathe up; to think up; to live up. Up is where God is. Up is where God lives. Up is where I, too, live as God intends for me to live. Mountain living is a good fit with my soul, whether in the “here and now” or in the “there and then.”
Even so, Lord Jesus, lift my eyes, elevate my heart, and raise my faith so that I might claim some of your mountain peace for the journey that lies ahead. I’ve got a few more miles to travel before arriving home to you; I want to walk them with the mountain in mind. Keep me to sacred ascent. Amen.
 {this one’s for you, Sassy}
PS: Answers to previous post’s questions: Gatlinburg, TN, my birthday, with Beth & Bill Endean, and the one answer no one guessed correctly… Kevin who makes earrings! He also has antiques in his store at the Smoky Mountain Bead Bar on Glades Rd. I loved seeing Kevin the most; his first words to me were, “What did you do to your hair?” I told him the story… both of us were moved with the telling. He holds a special place in our  hearts! So, for those of you who answered correctly, names were thrown into a hat, and the winners are Sita, Karen B., and Skoots1Mom. You’ll be receiving a pair of earrings I made; if you don’t wear earrings, let me know, and I’ll stick in another Gatlinburg treasure. Please send me your addresses, girls.
knee-deep conviction…

knee-deep conviction…

“I have been driven many times upon my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had no where else to go . . .” a quote spoke by Abraham Lincoln as the Civil War waged on during his presidency. Spoken further . . . “My own wisdom and that of all about me was insufficient for that day.”

I read the quote while visiting Marsha’s blog and watching this video. On Saturday morning, the postman delivered this package from Kathy. Inside?

 

It now hangs in my bedroom so that it cannot be missed with my “lying down for the night” and my “rising up for the day.” A reminder of the power and privilege that is mine as God’s child. That my convictions—those soul-stirrings that refuse release—belong to my knees and that surely, like Lincoln, “my own wisdom and all of that about me is insufficient for this day.”

 

Today, I find my knees, because no matter the places I’ve tried to put my trust—find my anchor and hold my ground—they’ve all fallen short and not brought about the peace I desire. Today, I need to talk to Jesus about some things. Things not easily resolved with my “riding in the van” or “taking a walk” kinds of prayers. Not “over the dishes” or “putting away clothes” kinds of prayers. No, these things require a bit more deliberation. These issues I’m staring at full force on need the benefit of knees and worn carpet and an intentional posture in my heart before the Lord.

 

I imagine you’ve had a few moments like this in your own journey with Jesus—times when you needed to pour out your tears, worries, and fears before him in a safe place. Times free of distractions when the only noises around you are the whispers of Eden . . . the promptings of grace. Times when the “war” going on around you and inside of you is an assault to your faith and only by stepping back and kneeling down can you gain proper perspective—God’s perspective.

 

Are you willing to live that kind of prayer life, a knee-bending, wear out the carpet kind of prayer life? Are your prayers in response to the truth that you have no where else to go . . . that your own wisdom and all of that about you is insufficient for the task at hand? Or, are your prayers simply added as a postscript to human effort and manipulation?

 

I don’t want to reserve my knees for special seasons of extraordinary struggle. Instead, I want to default to their bending on every occasion . . . a prayer posture that doesn’t wait for disaster to strike but rather, a prayer posture that is willing to bend the knee in all of life’s matters, whether large and intrusive or small and slightly irritating. Left to my own configuring, I remain as I am—sacred, hostile, manipulative, and worried. On my knees and before the Father, I live higher. I find peace and perspective . . . less of a need to control and better able to concede my will to God’s.

 

There’s a deep insufficiency within me to handle all of life and its rude interruptions. There’s a deep sufficiency in Christ, more so, to cover them all.

 

For this day and for the next, and for however many remain in this earthly pilgrimage, may the overwhelming conviction of our hearts remind us that we have only one place to go to find our peace for the journey. To our knees, before our King. He deserves nothing less. Even so, bring your heart before his throne today. As always . . .

 

Peace for the journey,

growing…

growing…

My hair. Beginning seeds have begun their sprouting, and I can’t decide if I’m going to be completely gray at forty-four or will continue with a patchy mix of various shades. While barely visible to others, I feel my hair there… soft and tender and just enough of a reminder to me that life is springing forth from a recent hollowed-out landscape. A beautiful gift of unraveling grace in this season of rebirth. A visible reminder to me that spring follows winter, that blooms follow a planting, and that with time, a full garden of full growth will be evident for all the world to witness.
With full growth comes closer tending. In days to come, I will seek out a new stylist for the job. I haven’t needed one since moving here last June. A bald head doesn’t require much attention. Whereas other women are spending lots of time and money on their tresses each day, I simply pull out the box beneath my bed and pick out a turban/scarf that matches the clothes I’m wearing. I have Darlene to thank for them. I suppose, in a different sort of way, she’s been my stylist in this season—a woman committed to meeting the “hair” needs of cancer patients.
She owns two shops within an hour’s drive of my home, each of them filled with enough wigs, scarves, hats, and ribbon wear to stylishly outfit a naked head. Even more so, Darlene stocks a heart filled with compassion and understanding for the patrons of her wares. Her customer service doesn’t stop at the cash register. Her ministry extends beyond dollars and cents to include follow-up phone calls and conversations, assuring the patron that she is not alone in her fight against cancer. It may seem a simple thing to some, but to me Darlene is a living, breathing extension of God’s grace and love. She’s doing her part to add vibrancy and color to the canvas named cancer, and I feel so honored to be a recipient of her careful concern.
Darlene is the reason I loaded a few books into my ten-year-old mini-van last evening and traveled to her shop to speak to a group of cancer survivors. She’s been asking me for a while now… to come a give a word or two about my story and about my Peace for the journey. I wasn’t sure what I could offer them in the way of encouragement; after all, most of them have been on this cancer road longer than me and could offer a few pointers as it pertains to living this cancer through to victory. Still and yet, I remembered my bracelet and my word for the year, and I went… entrusted by God with the truth.
And so it unfolded—an evening of fellowship, food, and truth-telling amidst the sacred circle of survivors. I was honored to sit amongst them… to hear their laughter, to receive their acceptance, and to see the resiliency in their eyes as they spoke a bit of their stories to me. In turn, I spoke a bit of my story to them; I don’t remember much of what I said, but I do know that the name of Jesus was spoken, and once he took the stage, I quickly came to realize that his name resonated with them as well. One by one, they offered their take on faith, and without exception all acknowledged their deep dependency on God as they battled through their cancer.
Indeed, I was in good company last evening. A garden of spring blooms. Sweet sisters in Christ, valiant and strong and a lovely reminder of all that can go right with cancer… all the splendor that can spring forth in abundance after a long, wintering season of silence. Now, as a cancer survivor myself, my flower gets added to the bouquet… one stem mingled amongst many to serve as a living reminder that God, Creator Universal, delights in painting blossoms into the bleakest of seasons.
Not long ago, I wrote these words…
Cancer will not be my undoing; rather cancer will be the threshold of my emerging. After last evening’s fellowship with survivors and because of the now sprouting tendrils that blanket my scalp, I’m closer to believing that statement more fully. Sometimes it takes a season’s worth of struggle to anchor firm belief. I’m six months into that struggle, friends, and my faith roots grow deeper every day. I don’t know how the subsequent pages of my story will read; I wouldn’t dare take a peek. But this I do know…
The faith-building that I’m doing today will better prepare me for the chapters that remain. I cannot control tomorrow’s unfolding, but I can, this day, better prepare my heart for its arrival. Accordingly, I tend to the garden of my heart, caring for the seeds already sown and watering them with the truth of God’s timely and gentle Word. The once hollowed-out landscape is ripe with the reminders of spring.
Resurrection blooms… headed my way and on display for all the world to see. Thanks be to God for the marvelous gift of his sustaining grace. As always…
Peace for the journey
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