“So Joshua called together the twelve men he had appointed from the Israelites, one from each tribe, and said to them, ‘Go over before the ark of the LORD your God into the middle of the Jordan. Each of you is to take up a stone on his shoulder, according to the number of the tribes of Israelites, to serve as a sign among you. In the future, when your children ask you, ‘What do these stones mean?’ tell them that the flow of the Jordan was cut off before they ark of the covenant of the LORD. When it crossed the Jordan, the waters of the Jordan were cut off. These stones are to be a memorial to the people of Israel forever.’” (Joshua 4:4-8).
I gathered a stone tonight. The dry river bed that once boasted the flood waters of another season’s living hosted my night’s walk. I will carry this stone of remembrance with me for the rest of my days as a memorial to a year well spent within the classroom walls of school named Trenton, within a grade named third, within the lives of twenty-one pupils named mine.
It wasn’t hard to love them, but it was hard to teach them, for I wearied long and tired on their behalf. Nighttimes were rarely my time because nighttimes were spent in preparation for the daytime to follow. My constant? Early to rise…late to bed with little rest in between. I breathed my job, and as quickly as the calendared thirty-six weeks arrived, they departed, but not without leaving an indelible impression upon my heart. When those buses drove off the lot on that last day of school, many teachers sighed their relief. I wept my sadness. No, it wasn’t hard to love the twenty-one, but it sure was hard to leave them.
My weary doing had marked me forever. We laid some stones that year. Made some memories and climbed some hurdles. These kids didn’t grow up like I did. They lived and breathed an existence that ended at the county line. Their world was small, and the bigness of mine entreated the dreams of their tomorrows. We crammed a lot of living into the nine months that we shared. And when, in the future, they wander back to remember their twelve years of classroom learning, I would be lying if I didn’t hope that my name would come up from time to time.
The gathering and the building of stones. That is what tonight was about…for them and for me. Some memories are worth our monuments, and these young adult men and women will always stand as one of mine.
Raising faith includes the building of such memorials. Taking the time to carve and to collect occasions as sacred, is a holy habit that God instilled within his children from the very beginning. He knew that they…that we…are prone to our forgetting. We pilgrim through life, sometimes with little awareness of God, until we reach a river’s edge that requires his participation. Steps forged in plenty and in peace rarely take the time to reflect on seasons past when God’s faithfulness superseded our doubt—when God stacked the flood ravaged waters so that we could pass through on dry ground.
We forget to remember. And when a crossing of the Jordan becomes our required portion, if the stones of our past remain ungathered—unmarked and uncherished—then faith has little anchor for the waters ahead. Thus, God commissions us to gather a few stones along the way.
To carry them within our hearts and to document them with our hands. To write them with our words and to capture them with our cameras. To shower them with our gifts and to wrap them with our hugs. To engage them with our time and to honor them with our commitment. To consecrate them with our laughter and to baptize them with our tears. To hold them with our tender and to remember them with our pause. To pick them up when the picking is good and to place them in our pockets as stones of remembrance for a season yet to come.
Life is hard, and rivers run swift. Rarely is a river’s bank the place of our constant abiding. Sooner or later, a walk through the water’s pulsing is required. It is in those times of testing when our gathered stones mean the most. When we can reach deep within our pockets to touch the past faithfulness of our God and to remember that a stone’s gathering awaits us on the other side of our obedience.
God never leads us through the Jordan without providing a few stones worthy of our collecting. Ten years ago, God allowed some raging waters to roll through our lives in Trenton—some literal waters named Hurricane Floyd and some darker, spiritual waters named trying and testing. It was a hard embrace and harder still, was the obedience to sow some sacred seed within its consuming rage. But just this night, I was given the privilege of tasting the fruit of some of those seeds. Seven of them to be exact.
And as soon as the tassels were turned, I made my way onto the riverbed that usually hosts football to gather a few more stones for the road ahead. Stones named Taimak, Lashonda, Allison, Amanda, Morris, Damien, and Argustus. These precious graduates are the rocks in my pocket this evening. I touch them with my hands, and through my tears, I build them as a monument of remembrance—of realizing that all was not lost in that season of hard. That the tears sown in my difficult have reaped a moment that softens its scars.
If faith is to be raised, then stones must be gathered. We will never leave a river’s walk without a trophy or two to carry home.
Home to our now. Home to our forever, when at last we lay our trophies at his feet…a monument for all eternity to the One who is faithful. To the One who is worthy. To the One whose stone is worthy of my pocket for always. And so I pray…
Make me a stone gatherer, Lord. Never let my hard obedience and your faithfulness to me in that hard, go unnoticed. Instead, pause my heart to sow some seed and to build some monuments that breathe the witness of your presence within the process. I thank you for my Trenton years, for they have given me some precious stones of remembrance for the journey ahead. With each touch and with every glance of their beauty, I will recall your faithfulness to me in that season and will finally make peace with my past. You are faithful, Lord. Yesterday. Today. Always. You are my remembered Peace. Humbly and with a grateful heart, I find my rest within the shadow of your Monument this night. Amen.
I’m so glad that you continue to take this walk with me through the Raising of my faith and the raising of faith of those under my influence. Today’s focus was embracing the stones of remembrance that come to us in our walk of faith. What are some of the stones that God has given you along the way? As always, I welcome your thoughts and prayers. I hope to post a last a final word on Raising Faith sometime this weekend. May God bless the reading of these words as only he can. Thank you for your faithful participation. Shalom!