Today I’ve turned the page in my cancer journey… a new chapter entitled Chemotherapy. There was a great deal of mystery surrounding this event; new chapters are like that. We cannot hold their fullness on the front end. To see it all, hold it all, and taste it all before that “all” arrives is to mark that chapter as previously read… as “been there done that,” no further mystery to absorb. Not so in my case. Yes, the “process” of receiving my chemotherapy is now recorded as experience. The after effects are what remain hidden. As they unfold, I will be careful to take notes and to consider their influence over me. It’s simply too much to know today. Accordingly, I will leave it for tomorrow.
Which reminds me, yet again, about my “worrying” needs and the importance of placing them within the context of single day… sometimes a single hour. God has tomorrow covered. All I need to be concerned with is how to manage the fullness of today. And so far, today has been covered magnificently by the grace of God.
God is my hero, and when his Spirit living within me connects with his Spirit living in him, the result is an unstoppable force of nature—a channel of power, strength, peace, and goodness. I love keeping pace with my King. I love when my heart rhythms with his. Today has been one of those days for me, and I am grateful for the simple joy of a single day that is ending far better than how I imagined it would end even as it began a few hours ago.
{my chemo nurse, Sarah, who is from Montana! I’m certain that God hand-picked her for me… for those of you who don’t know, I have a penchant for Montana.}
{free hats from Friends of the Cancer Center / Cape Fear Valley Hospital}
I wish I could write more… words escape me in this moment. Safe to say, thank you for ministering to me and my family as you do. You are the fingerprints of God all over my heart. I count it a privilege to walk alongside you in this season. As always…
Peace for the journey